Pity Party

So I rarely do this. But I'm doing it now because I need to vent a little bit.

I'm always taking care of people. And I love it! I love making sure everyone is happy, I love buying gifts. I'm the person who if I see something at the store that I know you would like, I would probably buy it for you, just because. I love planning parties, and if it's your birthday, you'd better believe we're gonna have a good time! I'm the peacemaker. And I'm not even the middle child, I always thought that was weird. Being the only child I've always been told that I'm spoiled and selfish even. I know that I'm spoiled...but that's not really my fault. My parents didn't have any other kids to spoil, so what am I supposed to do? They did a really great job making sure I wasn't a brat, though. I take care of my things and I know what a dollar is worth. I think I'm a pretty smart cookie when it comes to money and material things.

What I want to know is why it feels like no one ever does this for me. Why doesn't someone throw me a good party? Maybe because my bachelorette party is coming up in a couple months and I'm mentally sabotaging it because I see it ending up like my 21st birthday. I just feel like I'm always watching out for everyone else but nobody else is really watching out for me. Dan excluded of course, but it's expected of him :) I'm talking mainly about my friends.

This is a pity party because I'm planning this wedding and 3 out of 4 of my bridesmaids don't live anywhere near me. So it's hard to get excited about wedding stuff with no one to share it with. And my mom just turns it into a circus and I feel like I can't get out of the huge white wedding circus tent.

Everything will be ok. I just want the wedding to be over, for Dan and I to go on our AMAZING European honeymoon and finally be together. Life will be good.

Thanks for letting me get it out! Ok, pity party over :) Enjoy Wednesday!